Rewrite into one Mini Saga.
I suppose it starts back in July 2017. She was dating my best friend at
the time, they were in a relationship for a few weeks and it ended on bad
terms. While they were dating I had only seen her one time, I didn’t really say
much to her as I am a very shy and socially awkward person. I think I managed
to get a few hellos out but nothing more than that.
The
next time I met her was on the 31st of October. To be honest I don’t really
remember that night much since I was black out drunk for the majority of it. By
that time things seemed to be ok between her and my friend and that’s how I
started talking to her more.
In late
November we were all talking in group chats, online I am a lot less awkward and
am able to talk to other people, so this was a great way for me to start
talking to her.
As I
started to become more friendly with her I started to realise that she’s not
how my best friend made her out to be at all.
We
started to hang out more, and the more time I spent with her the closer I felt
to her. There are quite a few people in our friends group, I couldn’t quite
explain why. But I felt like I had some sort of bond with her, like I could
connect with her in a way that I couldn’t with the other people. Usually I hate
it when people hug me, but when she did it always felt warm and comforting.
Where
our relationship progressed was on new years eve, I had one of my depressive
episodes and ended up leaving all of the group chats I was in. At the time I
just felt really lonely, as if I’m destined to never be happy.
She
ended up private messaging me, asking what was wrong and why I was feeling like
that. There’s only a few people that know how much of a shit show my childhood
was, I felt comfortable with talking about it with her. And she seemed to have
the perfect response to everything. After a while I felt a little better about
myself and I will never forget some of the things that she said to me that
night.
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